I really missed being a full time librarian and thought it would make me feel like I still was, if I had a place to keep track of all the books I was reading. It also quickly became the place I would talk about how I would use all the books- library programs- my baby time and my mother daughter book club. I had every intention of keeping up with those programs and my blog.
In the summer of 2013 I started a full-time children's position and I felt like I was back where I belonged- the children's room. I started to get my feet wet again with weekly programs, I made great friends at the library and I was settling in.
Soon it became apparent to me that my dad who had been pretty sick all year, was only getting worse. By chance I saw a children's librarian position posted for a town near my parents and thought of it as my chance to be close to him and to help my mother.
In the span of a month I flew to Florida, interviewed and got the job, gave notice, packed nearly everything I owned into storage and moved to Florida.
My father knew I was here, there is no doubt about that but he died on December 15th.
I started my library job, and for the most part, it is a good one. There is a lot to do, and it keeps me busy and for that I am grateful.
Unfortunately, things didn't work out quite like I planned. At first, I found it really hard to concentrate. I couldn't read for about a month. Slowly, I have been coming around. I love looking for books for story-time and baby-time and lately I have been reading a good deal of teen angst.
I find myself thinking of my father a lot when I am planning my programs. It is in his lap that my sister and I learned the joy of listening to stories and to sing silly songs. The things that I like best, that make me really good at this job I got from him.
So I am sad, I feel like I got to Florida too late to help him like I wanted to. But, I can do what I do best for this little library for the time being.